To the Living Bulldozer

          “You win some you lose some.” Is one of the most FRUSTURATING clichés out there because there are so many hidden aspects that go unnoticed or even slightly brought up. What whoever it is who mentioned to you that “you win some you lose some” failed to state, is that while you win some, losing them is the hardest heart break you’ll ever have to encounter, and gaining something requires work, skill, and sometimes even failure. While those are things that fail to go unnoticed, in tonight’s case; the main “forgotten” point of winning something is friendship.

Let us travel back to kindergarten when we first meet that kid who shares a bite of their fruit snacks with us, or offers their favorite toy to play together. Second grade is when that same kid and maybe a few more starts to play tag, and jump rope with us, and shows us what a new form of fun is. Third and fourth grade is when things really start to heat up, and we notice our first real fight with one of our friends, and we find new ones, or we get over our differences and begin again.

It isn’t until fifth and sixth grade that I feel is when we start to experience the Human Wrecking Ball. When someone we have never got along with calls us ugly or stupid and we begin to not feel fun anymore, rather than insecure and angry. This human wrecking ball could very well have been at one point, our very best friend and is now friends with some other kids, causing destruction to our tiny, innocent brains. These living bulldozers are called bulldozers and wrecking balls for the simple fact that they come into our lives at one point or another, and cause a mass destruction into what was. Our walls of happiness and innocence come crumbling down in one hit, and after being built carefully back up topple over in another instant.

We have all experienced the human bulldozer and walking wrecking ball. Whether it have been a close childhood friend turned seemingly heartless, or a trusted adult ruining our ripe innocence, we know exactly who and what these people are, and some of us never quite recover from the aftermath. However, tonight is for me to tell my two very specific human bulldozer and walking wrecking ball examples Thank You.

Thank you for unknowingly setting an example of what I never want to be while I walk the earth. Thank you for showing me what it’s like to be you, so I can avoid being someone like you at all costs. Thank you for causing me to grow up and mature in ways I never would’ve been able to do without your round, concrete words that form into both the wrecking ball and bulldozer. Thank you, for reminding me that life sometimes comes falling down and how to cope with the fact that it isn’t always easy to build yourself up again.

In the story Humpty Dumpty, it talks about how all the kings’ horses and all the kings’ men tried to put Humpty together again, but failed and Humpty just gave up. However, somebody somewhere should’ve taught Humpty that sometimes it’s crucial for him to learn how to pick himself back up and brush off the dust.

Thank you Walking Wrecking Ball, for beautifully and chaotically tearing me apart so that I myself can learn to pick myself up again.